Holy Heck!

How is it July? How did it come so fast? I have 39DAYS until the wedding, and I'm gonna pee my pants! I sat down last night to try and write what I don't want to call vows, cause we are just using some standard non-dom vows, but I was ultra inspired by Rachel at Joe's service, when she wrote the most beautiful vow for him. I was so moved and realized you don't get many chances in life so obvious to really say something wonderful to the person you love. At that moment, all my conceptions about this idea changed and I wanted us to have something to say to one another at our service that we write for one another, just something small and personal. I think I've cursed myself, becasue i've always said it's lame to write your own, like, just cause you're getting married now it means your a poet? So now I'm stuck. I sat down last night and started trying to come up with some really beautiful words, and I feel stricken. I imagine the moment, but all I can do is stand trapped the gaze of everyone I know, and David staring at me while I'm silent. When I finally got some ideas out, they are so plain and simple, I like them for that, but I thought I'd be able to reach in my pocket and pull out something more profound or at least more articulate with a wider, more intersting vocabulary. I mean, I used to wite a lot, stories and poems and all sorts of things and now I'm reduced to such basic language. Maybe it's better that way, maybe that's how I keep it from being to flowery or sappy or overdone. I know it's going to be hard to get though so it's gonna be really really short, everytime I try to read it aloud to see how it sounds, I start crying. This is no good, if you're attending the wedding, just prepair yourself now for my snot. Cause I'm gonna cry, and it's gonna be the full runny nose, snot on the face crying, I'm sure. If I'm this emotional now, I'm going to be even worse then. Lets take a poll, who thinks if I take a couple shots before the ceremony, do I have a better chance of keeping my cool? or will I snot myself even more?